yeah so you can keep doin that to yourself if you want. like the whole "i don't like anybody and i don't want them to pay attention to me and i never want more friends even though i keep bringing food back or buying it and then cooking it and baking it and then giving it to folks cause i don't need to eat it n i pass it off like oh i don't need to eat it ha ha but i made it when i didn't have to do anything at all in the first place silly me" thing. y'know. the "maybe i actually want friends and this is how i'm trying to show it but i'm gonna keep talking shit about myself" thing.
or you could just make soup n maybe some buddies too.
Okay, but consider this: maybe I don't want anyone to get close to me because I don't wanna get burned, and since I have no social life because of this, I need something to do with my time, and then at least people can still benefit from me being a weird old man with anxiety who needs to keep busy by cooking and shit.
or you can just be ok with the TINY chance you'll get burned. like why're they not gonna like you?? cause you're a liminal? cause you're weird? cause you've got low self esteem????? that's literally the whole station. and you're already cooler than them all anyways.
I'm not, though. If I let people in my apartment, they're gonna like, see a weird book or something and then I'm gonna be known as the Weird Book Guy forever and I'll have to leave the station and change my name.
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yeah so you can keep doin that to yourself if you want. like the whole "i don't like anybody and i don't want them to pay attention to me and i never want more friends even though i keep bringing food back or buying it and then cooking it and baking it and then giving it to folks cause i don't need to eat it n i pass it off like oh i don't need to eat it ha ha but i made it when i didn't have to do anything at all in the first place silly me" thing. y'know. the "maybe i actually want friends and this is how i'm trying to show it but i'm gonna keep talking shit about myself" thing.
or you could just make soup n maybe some buddies too.
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Okay, but consider this: maybe I don't want anyone to get close to me because I don't wanna get burned, and since I have no social life because of this, I need something to do with my time, and then at least people can still benefit from me being a weird old man with anxiety who needs to keep busy by cooking and shit.
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plus who gives a shit if a book's weird. if you don't want folks to know you isn't bein weird book guy a good thing????? more armor.
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I'll think about it.
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But thank you.
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I'm not a very likeabAll I wanted was for the kids to be nice to themselves so they're not like me when they're in their 40s.dm [6/12]
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